Photo Challenge Day 9 - Broken

This is me. I'm broken right now.

This was the initial x-ray taken in the ER on the morning of Sunday April 28th. The orthopedist was going to be able to treat it conventionally with just rest and a sling. The tendons would have eventually pulled my shoulder back up. I would have always had a slight bump though, where the collar bone is sticking up.
I was okay with that.

Then last Monday I ended up having to lift Crystal up some stairs to get into our house and hurt myself even worse. I could tell it was bad. Had an appointment this morning with the ortho again and evidently I've completely severed the tendons. The new x-ray (which I desperately wish I had access to) looks even worse, as does the shoulder itself. The collar bone is sticking up approximately another 1/2 inch. It feels pretty miserable, and like the bone is going to pop out of the skin. I've been really fortunate to have had nothing worse than a broken big toe and I can't believe the amount of pain I am in. The drugs are helping a bit, but are also causing some extreme nausea.

The result is that I am going into surgery at 9:30am tomorrow morning. Talk about having something sprung on you...whew. I guess it's good that I don't have too much time to worry about it. I'll hit the sack here in the next hour, get up and shower about 2 hours prior, then go on in. Not too much stress out time involved.

But of course you know I'm still packing as much stress in the time frame allotted...I wouldn't be me if I didn't.

The doctor/surgeon, who was rather awesome, said they'll be stretching the torn tendon back over the collar bone and suturing them into place. That will pull the collar bone down, but the tendons won't be strong enough to hold it in place so in addition to the sutures I'll be getting a titanium pin in my collar bone/shoulder.

Go Robo-Me!

That is the only possible way to get this giant knob, which my husband estimates to be sticking up "Oh! At least 3/4!!", to go away. I'll be trading the knob for a scar, but I'd much, much rather have the scar.

Anyhoo my friends, I figured this was a rather fitting submission for today :)

Wish me luck and I'll talk at ya'll tomorrow ;)